I pray our girl is strong. Strong like a warrior going into battle. Strong like an oak tree that’s not concerned with taking up its space; growing upward towards the sky and deeply into the soil. Strong enough to withstand the pressures of this world; knowing that while she is a gift to us here, she was made for somewhere else entirely. Strong enough to grab ahold of what she believes in without doubt or insecurity. I pray that she knows her strength can be both bold and delicate; both calming and fortifying. That she would never have to choose between strength and meekness, and that neither would be confused for what they are not. I pray she is strong for herself and for others; that she would stand in the gap for those who may not have the ability to be strong for themselves. I pray she is strong because the world needs strong women - women who lift others up, who stand up for what is right, and who hold tight to what is true.
I pray that her strength would know no bounds, like the vastness of the oceans deep, both wild and open. That no fear, no insecurity, would ever rob of her of her role here on this earth but instead, with strength, she would lay hold of every dream and promise given to her. Yes, I pray she is strong, and I pray that God would make me strong enough to raise a strong woman like this.
The other night I was asked what has been most unexpected since getting pregnant, and I've been thinking on this for a few days now. I think I've landed on the following: I never expected to take on motherhood so early on. That is to say, I didn't expect to feel like a Mom before I held her in my arms.
There's a beautiful, deep connection that I have with her, that has truly transformed my perspective, my priorities, and my personhood, even now. I have felt new depths of love and heard God's voice in a unique way, that I know I wouldn't have before. I didn't think this would happen while I was pregnant and thought all the change would happen all at once when she arrived. But the truth is, in so many ways it feels like she's not only here now, but always been with us, like this promise written on my heart that I've carried unknowingly.
This whole experience has been beautiful to say the least. Difficult? Absolutely. But, I'm used to challenges and thankful for the fruit they produce. I know that there is still so much more to learn, and glean, and experience, and I welcome it all with open arms.
We took a visit to the beach this weekend and I loved that our sweet girl got to be with us. I can't wait until she's running around in her bathing suit, chasing Gretchen around! I wore this dress from Pink Blush that fit my bump so perfectly. I love finding dresses that make me feel good, and this is definitely one of them.